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January 27, 2010 at 8:23 pm (favorite authors, heartache, life, love, musica)

“Sweet Illusions”

Let me go I’m only letting you down
I ‘ve got nothing to say to you now
I lose the feelings that are weighing me down
When I’m safe

It’s turning morning all the birds sing
I’m not complicating anything
I’ll have another then I’ll go to bed
But I’ll dream of you

Cause it’s almost over
And it’s almost gone

And I can feel the sweet illusion, coming
Sweet confusion, honey
Sweet illusion coming down
And I ain’t got nothing but love for you now

You and I used to shine like a jewel
But times been nothing to us but cruel
So play it out and never played the fool
Cause you’ll lose every time

We were nothing, we were only the past
Hard times like that don’t last
I’ve been forgiven, I’ve been surpassed
By my heart
Have you?

Cause it’s almost over
Yeah it’s almost gone

And I can feel the Sweet Illusion coming
Sweet Confusion, honey
Sweet Illusion coming down
And I ain’t got nothing but love for you

Love for you I can’t use
And lonely nights multiplied by the blues
That I can’t resolve

You never knew me but I did my best
I’m just lonely inside I guess
You gave me everything you really tried
Thanks….

If we were nothing and we’re only the past
Then I’m just living in a dream I guess
A long black dream that takes me down the river to you

Where it’s almost over
And we’re almost gone

And I can feel the Sweet Illusion coming
Sweet Confusion, honey
Sweet Illusion coming down

And I ain’t got nothing but love for you now

oh febuary

Cheers for 2010…Last year was such a mess…it’s 3 am and I can’t sleep…I miss her everyday, and I still get nightmares about that day, even though on the day to day things are going well…I am excited to watch every leaf unfold. I think that I lead a really interesting life…i heard a cool quote recently that said “I would rather make interesting mistakes than have safe successes.” I dont think my life is full of mistakes, but every bump and turn has made for the outcome. Whatever reasons that have led me to Thailand have made me so incredibly grateful. I love so many things about this place…the monks, the jungle, the thai writing, the language…there are so many intriguing and amazing things here!